You Left Me

After the divorce
I left you
or you left me,
pushed me away
I thought time
would lessen my grief
help me to forgive you
forget you

but we are bound by
a much higher purpose
ordained by God
chosen purposely
nurtured

I sought answers
again and again
your approval
again and again

but you left me
alone with my
shattered illusions
and my cynicism

slowly I withered
like an apple
fallen to the ground
firm flesh
muddled and distorted
misshapen
till it was
unrecognizable
rotten and bitter

you left me
with my hurt
and my hatred

you left me